[my superpower: i never fit in]
Oct. 3rd, 2026 07:52 pmanyway that's nearly 600 words to say i've been coming out of my cage and i've been doing much better than just fine, in a lot of respects. i've felt for a few weeks like today would be significant for me, and i was right, but it was significant in way the italicized oh is in so much fic rather than something involving external happenings. the drive between where i grew up/live now and chapel hill (or raleigh/cary, when i lived there) has so often been among my best thinking time (typically while singing loudly, enthusiastically, and badly).
so far in october, i've made plans to see a grad school friend i haven't seen since 2008, iirc; had my boss ask me if i would accept another promotion if he has another new role created for me; have reframed a volunteer role from something i do as the price of admission to something i get to do to give back to a group that is very important to me; had a fun road trip where i got to socialize (i can usually count on one hand the number of times per year where i get to hang out with friends/friend-adjacent people); had a heavy AI user tell me he'd wait for my analysis because he trusts me more than Claude; and figured out how i want to focus my energies for the next while.
sometime back in 2008 or thereabouts,
i should probably start on that by not staying up excessively past my bedtime, even though a dark quiet room when the world is asleep is an ideal environment for reading and i'm on the last chapter of a robby/abbot (the pitt fic i've been saving for the right occasion and which has been even better than i'd hoped
